The Unspoken

Many things left unsaid
Build up like tar in lungs

I'm suffocating

I breathe in darkness
The only thing that will embrace me
The only something I deserve

Never exhaling

Saving others from the smoke
No one should feel my pain
Nobody should even know

Never talking

I stay seated with my mouth shut

Only inhaling

Many things untold
Build up like piles of waste

I'm decaying

Wishing to cry out apologies
To those who called me friend
Not letting them close enough to know

I feel haunted
And it is my own fault.

Note To Self:
you can't make everyone happy.
i've tried.
it's impossible.

reminisced;
- 11:53 PM

Zakaria
Officially 19
Demure by nature
Straight, single and not-looking
Music & Audio Tech student at SP
Drums & percussions
Sinister Infants
Melodic punk rock

i am just the way i am. judge me for all you want. it doesn't matter. it didn't matter. it will not matter. be nice. and maybe with a wee bit of a miracle, i might just be whoever you want me to be.

THE SONG FOR YOU

THE WISHLIST

Get above 3.0 for 2nd year's GPA
Get that scholarship
Write a poetry compilation book
Finish writing the 3 songs
Record those 3 songs
That white electric guitar
New Zildjian drumsticks
Sinister Infants reunion
Perform on that homecoming event
Break this inner barrier
Tell her
Read her mind
Write her a goodbye-i'll-go-unless-you-stop-me song

THE WALL

THE HEROES AND HEROINES

Afiq
Ain
Amin
Amir
Angela
Arini
Aziz
Cerlyn
Crystal
Danial
Dayana
Dina
Elmo
Gazali
Imran
Iswan
Jali
Jethro
Joel
Jun Rong
Kak Nisa (cuzzin)
Kamilliya
Lenus
Liyana
Lloyd
Nafeesa
Namira
Naqib
Nisa
Radhiah
Radhiyah
Sakinah
Shafiq
Shakir
Sharina
Suhailah
Syafiqah
Syamil
Syima
Thaqif
Vicky
Wiwik
Zoul
Zubaidah

THE PAST

February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
August 2009

THE CREDITS

Designer GWEND
Brushes MISS M