Thursday, November 6, 2008
The Heartbeat
it is simple music;
there are no words,
and there is no singing.
it is an old voice,
and a deep voice,
like the stump of a sweet cigar,
or a shoe with a hole.
it is a voice that has lived and lives,
with sorrow and shame,
ecstacy and bliss,
joy and pain,
redemption and damnation.
it is a voice with love and without love.
i like the voice,
and though i can't talk to it,
i like the way it talks to me.
it says, "it is all the same, young man.
take it and let it be.."
Hmmm.. The Notebook.. That movie says it all.. Nuthin in this life goes easy. There's pain and sorrow, and then there's joy and ecstacy. Hard work is all we need, and plus a little bit of faith and miracle, of course. Heh. Suki was right. It's a touching and inspiring movie. See, I've never regretted joining the GEM class. Haha..
Hmmm.. So I didn't cry watching it. Well that doesn't mean I'm heartless or anything like that, but I just can't. It is indeed a lovely story that melts the heart of anyone who watches it. Me included. But then again, I know it won't happen in real life. No use hoping that the same thing would happen to anyone of us, 'cuz it won't. Anyone would pray hard for it to happen, but it won't. Hmmm.. As much as I love the story of that movie, i just hate it. 'Cuz I know it won't happen in real life. It just won't. And that is why they make that movie. Oh shit, I hate myself. Hmmm.. Well, apart from the reality check, The Notebook is no doubt an awesome movie to watch. It's beyond awesome, actually.
Alright.. So... This week's been awesome. Except for the late mornings, everything's doing just fine. It's a start. And I'm really trying to change. For the better. And I realized that the stalker in my tagboard is true. Heh. Listening ears are everywhere. I just need to open up myself more, though I still have problems doing that.. And Wan, you're right. It's really hard being a guy. But then again, a guy has got to do what a guy has got to do. Heh. And I know what I've got to do. I needed a plan, and I've got it. Hmmm.. Well.. I can't depend on people all the time right? Like I said, it's our life. We choose, we decide.
So I chose to be me. I am myself. And I am not going to be him, nor him, nor him. Not some emo dude. Not some cry baby. I'll be me. Zakaria. I have my own sets of things to solve, and I'm damn well going to solve it. And that's the way it's going to be. Whether you or I like it or not. Capishe? Capishe. \m/
reminisced;
- 4:41 PM
