Paint all these pretty words on blank paper With silence balanced on my lips Hoping words won't fall off my tongue The strings holding fingers Playing hearts like marionettes On a dead scene I hang Contemplating guilt As the rope curling around my neck Gains strength with every inch it closes in Not worth speaking About the masquerade of holding hands And the false pretense called tears This is nothing more Then a blank paper hanging..
Everybody wants a change.. But they can't just sit there and wait for the change to happen. Instead of waiting, why not BE the change?
Hmmm.. Honestly, I'm kinda tired of always trying so hard.. So hard that I forgot that I'm supposed to be the one in-charge of my life. Heh. Why bother make everyone happy when you eat yourself inside out..? Why try so hard getting what you don't deserve..? Why wait for answers to nothing..? And yeah, why live in denial..? Shucks.. Things have got to change, Zakaria. Do one thing: BE the change.
School's opening in less then 3 weeks. And I need a plan. Badly. I don't want to flop again. Yes, friends are important, but I've had enough of that "fun now, despair later" tragedy. They knew what they're doing when they decided to have fun, I didn't. And the feeling always suck went they get good grades at the end of the day, and I, well, I always disappoint myself. The irony is that we had the exact same fun, but shockingly different results. Hmmm.. Well I'm sorry guys, but I can't afford to risk it again.. Hope you guys understand..
So yeah.. I really hope this new change will be for the better.. I wanna see those smiles again on my parents faces. Yeap. Till then, the change starts now.
reminisced; - 11:13 PM
EL INTROVERTO
Zakaria
Officially 19
Demure by nature
Straight, single and not-looking
Music & Audio Tech student at SP
Drums & percussions
Sinister Infants
Melodic punk rock
i am just the way i am.
judge me for all you want.
it doesn't matter.
it didn't matter.
it will not matter.
be nice. and maybe with a wee bit of a miracle,
i might just be whoever you want me to be.
